People do get curious all the time. But the ability to stay curious after seeing things for what they are, is priceless and rare.

It feels good to able to feel again, through music and fiction and movies. I thought that part of me was long gone.

Good girls are bad girls that haven't been caught.

'Cause every night she studies hard in her room

At least that's what her parents assume

We want to aim but we don't want to lose our root

We want to love but we don't want to be vulnerable

We want to make things happen but we don't want to suffer that much

So our true self lies in between those two extremes. How we compromise defines us..

Serene Sunday afternoon, listening to cliche Indonesian love songs, reading current movie project brief, daydreaming, trying to be less prone to critics, trying to get a sense of what's currently happening in these rites of passage, trying to figure it out. Thinking of the thin line between love and infatuation. Thinking of the people who suddenly seem so distant, and the strangers who suddenly seem so close. Questioning my way of perceiving the world. Contemplating on how I've sinned like other people, and how I've sinned differently than other people. Considering myself as too much to handle, at the same time being grateful that some people really do not mind.

And longing, longing for those innocent talks, without agenda, without intention, only two people trying to get to know each other.